More Than Passing Judgement

Writing 101, Day Seventeen: Your Personality on the Page– What are you scared of? Address one of your worst fears. If you’re up for a twist, write this post in a style that’s different from your own. This isn’t a fear as such, it is something that bothers me.

Wherever I go there will be someone that dislikes me,

I’m judged even before I utter a word and I honestly don’t have time to care,

I won’t lose any hair or shed a tear,

We all make passing judgements; I’ve done my fair share,

It’s the fact that people pretend to like me that I cannot bear,

Keep the conversation to a minimum; give me a second glance or stare,

I think that would be pretty fair,

It’s closed mindedness and hate that is spread for invalid reasons that I fear,

When someone establishes their hate for someone and the reason behind it is invalid or unclear,

You talk to someone for a minute and all of a sudden they are hated,

There’s me thinking this type of behaviour was out dated,

I first came across this behaviour when I was in school,

Its funny how so many of my peers thought it was cool,

Now that I’m older it seems people have only become bolder,

Take the time to get to know me and maybe you will understand my point of view,

If you don’t like me its okay; I wish you well with whatever you do,

I do not live my life to be rated or dwell on being hated by a few.
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5 Tips For Getting Your Motivation (Mojo) Back 

Writing 101, Day Sixteen: Serial Killer III– Imagine you work in a place where you manage lost or forgotten items. What might you find in the pile? I took an alternative approach for this assignment…

1. Reevaluate your goals 
Over time things change, we change. The things we once wanted turn into the unwanted. There’s no point convincing ourselves that we want the unwanted, dig a little deeper and start over if you need to.

2. Talk to someone 
I have friends that allow me to vent and vice versa. I never feel like I’m being judged by them; they listen, advise and encourage me. Reach out to someone in your life that fits the bill.

3. Write your feelings down 
6 months down the line you may feel like you’re losing your motivation again. Use your diary to understand how you felt and how you worked towards getting your motivation back. It’s not dwelling on the past; it’s reminding yourself how far you’ve come and helping to get you back on track.

4. Write your goals in list form
I made a bucket list and posted it. I have more goals which I have elsewhere for personal reasons. Glance over your list regularly, imagine you are about to perform your favourite song on stage and keep repeating your list to yourself.

5. Picture it
You can make your own collage for your bedroom or pretty much anywhere! Wherever you are you can look at all the beautiful things you desire. Pinterest is a great app to use; I dabble in it when I’m on the go.

And if you still can’t find your Mojo, you can share mine 😀
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Read about The Day I Lost My Mojo here

Photo credit: http://about.me/julientromeur

The Day I Found My Mojo

Writing 101, Day Thirteen: Serial Killer II Write about finding something. For your twist, view day four’s post and today’s post as installments in a series. 

Read my Day Four post here

Mojo found his way back to me in no time, he never let’s me down! I woke up feeling like myself again and when I looked over my shoulder he was right there beside me. Coincidentally my insomnia has been cured!

Mojo bought me a box of my favourite chocolates, unfortunately I cannot eat chocolate anymore. Nevertheless I’m happy to have my motivation back, now its time to go in for the kill!!
mojo-and-chocoOh looks its Mojo and a box of choco!

Photo credit: http://about.me/julientromeur

The Wednesday Vegetarian

Writing 101, Day Ten: HappyTell us about your favorite childhood meal — the one that was always a treat, that meant “celebration,” or that comforted you and has deep roots in your memory.

Every Wednesday my Primary School lunch was a ‘Traditional roast’; a slice of turkey, roast potatoes, vegetables and gravy. It was my least favorite meal to be honest!

~A plate full of memories! 
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On Wednesdays I would always be prepared with my game face when approaching the lunch counter. I would walk up to the dinner lady and ask for macaroni and cheese, she would glance down at me and ask if I was a vegetarian. I responded with a convincing ‘Yes’, well today I am I would think to myself and it worked like a charm!

My parents wouldn’t have condoned my slight twist of the truth, but what does a girl have to do to get a slice of her favourite pie? There was more than enough for the vegetarian’s along with fellow mac and cheese lovers like myself! I can’t recall what accompanied the mac and cheese, it could have been served with a pencil eraser for all I know! All I saw on my plate was a heap of creamy heaven…Mac and cheese over my school’s roast any day!

If I could eat mac and cheese every other day I would, but I know its no good for my health! My brother sure does make a mean mac and cheese these days.

~Christmas 2013
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Self-Love Vs. Self-Hatred

Writing 101, Day Seven: Give and TakeWrite a post based on the contrast between two things — whether people, objects, emotions, places, or something else.

Self-Love= SL
Self-Hatred= SH

SL: I look beautiful today! My skin is glowing!
SH: Who am I trying to kid? My skin looks terrible!
SL: Maybe I’ll wear the new dress I purchased yesterday.
SH: Second thoughts I don’t want to draw any attention to myself.
SL: I don’t care what anyone thinks! Every spoil is a style.
SH: I wonder what people will think of me if I wear it.
SL: As long as I’m comfortable that’s all that matters!
SH: I think I’ll wear jeans and a t-shirt instead that way no one will notice me. I’m returning the dress.

SL: The world is my oyster, there are so many possibilities!
SH: Ugh my life sucks, I was born unlucky!
SL: I know my capabilities and strengths, I will go far!
SH: I have so many weaknesses, I’m never going to get where I want to be.
SL: This job is right up my street! I’m going for it!
SH: Why would they choose me? There’s probably someone better suited.
SL: You know what; I love being me! I’m not perfect, but I will always try my hardest to better myself.
SH: I wonder what it would feel like to be someone else for a day. Things never go my way, I give up!
SL: If I can’t love myself, how can I expect anyone else to?

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The Perfect View

Writing 101, Day 2: Just A View If you had the power to get somewhere — anywhere — where would you go right now?

Would you believe me if I said I’d never been on a plane before? I can’t believe it myself! I’m longing to get on a plane and this year I’m making it happen. I’m far from nervous about jumping on a plane. The destination is irrelevant, I would be happy just stepping foot on a one!

I can only imagine how it feels to be high in the sky and glancing down at the breathtaking view.

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Once the plane lands; I’d slowly walk down the stairs and then I’d find a convenient spot to compose myself. I would stand still for a few moments; taking in long deep breaths as I questioned whether or not I was still asleep.

I can only dream right now…Get me on a plane ASAP! Right after I get some sleep! My body is exhausted, my mind is restless, yet my hands are still able to type away…

Insomnia, what did I ever do to you?

A Letter To The Unknown

Writing 101, Day 5: Be Brief You discover a letter on a path that affects you deeply. Today, write about this encounter.

I quickly turned around to see if I could catch a glimpse of the person that had left the letter behind, but there was no one around. I carefully read through the letter as I tried to figure out who could have possibly sent it.

The letter wasn’t addressed to anyone using a specific name; the sender hadn’t signed their name and they didn’t leave any contact details either. Perhaps the sender didn’t want to reveal their identity and they were afraid of the response?

Perhaps the recipient darted off in disperse after being taken aback by the content in the letter and left it behind? I wonder how the recipient is coping right now, I can’t imagine how they must be feeling! How do I trace either of these people? I have so many questions and there’s no one present to answer them.

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Yesterday I Lost My Mojo

Writing 101, Day 4: The Serial KillerWrite about a loss: something (or someone) that was part of your life

I have no idea where he is! I lost him somewhere between my workplace and my house. The last time I checked he was sitting comfortably in my pocket whilst he guided me throughout my day. I’m not myself today! Positive energy is still flowing through me, but things aren’t the same without my Mojo!

He has disappeared before and returned shortly after, so I know I won’t need to send out a search party. In the beginning I assumed he would always be by my side, now I’ve come to realise that he needs time alone too. Most days I’m blessed with his strong presence as he motivates me and pushes me to the limit.

I woke up in the middle of the night to see if he had returned and he was nowhere to be seen. I didn’t wake up in the morning feeling invigorated, instead I felt frustrated and a tad bit lost.

He isn’t one for words and this is his way of addressing the fact that I need to make a change. Mojo knows that it’s only a matter of time before I’m back on track. Once I’ve completely reevaluated my goals he will make an appearance. We all need time to recuperate and reevaluate and I guess today is that day for me!

Here is a photo of him in case you were wondering what he looks like!

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How can I stay mad at this cute little fella? 🙂 I need my Mojo back!

Photo credit: http://about.me/julientromeur

What’s Your Purpose?

Writing 101, Day 1: Unlock the mind 

I do not believe for a second that I was put on this earth to live without a purpose, I am not here to sit and look pretty! I was a little bundle of joy my parents decided to bring into the world, they wanted me to grab hold of every opportunity that came my way and live a fabulous life. I have been molded into the person I am today due to my upbringing and along the way I have been searching for my purpose.

I’m not certain if I will find it tomorrow or even next week. I can’t guarantee that I will find my purpose, all I know is that I am determined to search for it.  I used to believe that having a good job would lead to finding my purpose. For some strange reason I’ve always despised being asked the question ‘What do you do?’ What does this even mean? I breathe, eat and sleep just like you! I used to avoid this question at all costs! Instead I would share my plans to start my own ice cream van business or my plans to become a pirate.

I’ve realised that my job doesn’t define me, if you want to put me into category based on my job title, then so be it! I may be in this job today, but who knows where I will be tomorrow. I honestly do not want to end up being that person that constantly takes work home after work and forgets to live life.

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On my journeys to work I have seen people that are all suited and booted, and they look so miserable! At first glance I admittedly assume some of them have fairly well paid jobs. Then there’s the happy go lucky people who may not have best jobs, but they have the biggest smiles on their faces! Who knows they may be happy with their jobs! They may even have a passion they are yet to pursue and it is keeping them going. Just remember your current situation is only as permanent as the thoughts you allow to stream through your mind.

Many of us work because we have to; the purpose of working is to pay bills and so on. This doesn’t necessarily define your purpose on earth. Paying bills is something we all have to do. Over the years I’ve asked others if they enjoy their jobs and only a handful have said yes. Of course there are the lucky ones that are passionate about their jobs and work doesn’t seem like work for them. Are you one of those people?

If not, you can always look a little deeper, so many of us have hobbies which we are so passionate about and we have the ability to do so much with them. So what if your current situation doesn’t reflect your purpose? I am going to try my hardest to gain insight into more of my interests and hopefully my purpose will become a lot clearer. Right now I feel like I am on the right track!

Is it possible to lead a happy life without a purpose? Do you feel as though you have found your purpose? I believe that once you find your passion it will lead to your purpose.