The Great Escape Part 1

It was a room full of empty desks with no warmth or interacting going on. There was just silence and animosity in the air. It was a place once described as a fun and friendly environment. It definitely wasn’t living up to its expectations and it was only day one. On paper it looked great, it was right up my street. I ignored my first impressions as I was excited about the new chapter in my life. Little did I know that everything would take a 360 degree spin.

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True colours slowly started to seep through the cracks in the walls. The tense environment became almost unbearable, it was difficult to get up every morning and convince myself everything was okay. Things weren’t adding up, I felt uneasy and I knew something wasn’t right.

The rumours I had heard through the grapevine were starting to make perfect sense. I needed to know where I stood. I confronted the situation and the response was sugar coated, then put aside as I was reassured all was well. I knew it wasn’t, but I smiled and left it at that.

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I was back to being trapped in the corner with no clue what was going on in my own surroundings.  The whispering continued and I tried to take everything in my stride. I wanted this so much and I couldn’t even concentrate.

False accusations started to echo in the room. I was genuinely confused as I was doing everything I was asked to do. I bit my tongue when something out of line had been directed at me. I tried to convince myself it would be worth it, I wanted this for so long.  Dishonesty had now replaced the silence in the room. I couldn’t take it anymore, I knew today was the day.

Part Two: http://wp.me/p4xLH1-4X

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He’s So Fine & So Not Mine!

In response to: The Daily Prompt

I’ve never really had a type. I like what I like! It wasn’t necessarily his physical attributes that attracted me to him. Although I couldn’t ignore his cute little dimples when he smiled or the intense eye contact between us as we spoke. I often looked down at the floor in fear of my eyes giving it all away. He would ask why I kept looking away and I would say “I don’t like people looking at me” or ” I’m shy”. As time went by we spoke more often, we got on so well and we realised how similar we actually were.

He is the kind of person you can open up to immediately, he listens, offers advice and I never feel like he is judging me. He makes me laugh like no other, he always offers a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on. I don’t know what it is, but whenever I see him I automatically smile on the inside! He is the first person I want to share my good news with.

I pretend that the thought of us has never crossed my mind, when deep down I know it has! I’m constantly reminded that he is a good guy; I have always known this, I’ve kept my feelings hidden and in the dark. I want to talk to him near enough all the time, but I resist as if it’s crime to talk to the one I miss.

Sometimes it feels like there is something in the air, I often wonder if I’ve missed the hints or if  I’m over thinking this.

Maybe I should give it time or convince myself that staying friends is fine! Should I stop myself from revealing how I’ve been feeling?

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He’s so fine and so not mine.