You Can’t Run Away From Your Problems!

They say you can’t run away from your problems and it is so true! No matter where you go your problems will always follow you. We cannot operate our thoughts with an on/off switch or select which day we’d prefer a thought to run through our minds.

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I’ve had my own little escapism plans, where no unwanted thoughts could enter. I would find little things to distract me and I would often get pleasure out of doing things I wouldn’t usually enjoy doing. Then came the ” Back to reality” wake up call…Sooner or later I was back where I started!

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I have contemplated the places I’d rather be in a hope my problems would disappear. I thought that if I got on a train and travelled to XYZ, my problems would be left behind. I believed this was the solution and everything would be peachy from then onwards.

Boy was I wrong! My problems wouldn’t be left behind on the train, my problems would get off the train with me! In my head it seemed like the easy way out! As we all know; the things we believe are easy sometimes turn out to be not so easy!

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My bed is the main place I visit when I want to run away from my thoughts. A few hours of rest with no interruptions from the voice in my head- what more could I ask for? At times it works wonders, I wake up feeling refreshed, motivated and as if I could take on the world! But when your problems start to haunt you in your sleep, you know it’s time to get your shit together!

It’s time to address the situation and talk things through with yourself!  I’m often called crazy for talking to myself, but my response is ” I’m comfortable with myself”. If this makes me crazy, then so be it!

Sometimes it needs to be done, do what you have to do! If you can’t help yourself then who will? It all starts with addressing the problem and curbing your thoughts as you work towards finding the solution.

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You can’t run away from your problems…

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The Great Escape Part 1

It was a room full of empty desks with no warmth or interacting going on. There was just silence and animosity in the air. It was a place once described as a fun and friendly environment. It definitely wasn’t living up to its expectations and it was only day one. On paper it looked great, it was right up my street. I ignored my first impressions as I was excited about the new chapter in my life. Little did I know that everything would take a 360 degree spin.

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True colours slowly started to seep through the cracks in the walls. The tense environment became almost unbearable, it was difficult to get up every morning and convince myself everything was okay. Things weren’t adding up, I felt uneasy and I knew something wasn’t right.

The rumours I had heard through the grapevine were starting to make perfect sense. I needed to know where I stood. I confronted the situation and the response was sugar coated, then put aside as I was reassured all was well. I knew it wasn’t, but I smiled and left it at that.

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I was back to being trapped in the corner with no clue what was going on in my own surroundings.  The whispering continued and I tried to take everything in my stride. I wanted this so much and I couldn’t even concentrate.

False accusations started to echo in the room. I was genuinely confused as I was doing everything I was asked to do. I bit my tongue when something out of line had been directed at me. I tried to convince myself it would be worth it, I wanted this for so long.  Dishonesty had now replaced the silence in the room. I couldn’t take it anymore, I knew today was the day.

Part Two: http://wp.me/p4xLH1-4X