A Distant Stranger

Imagine you are used to someone’s presence and you can’t imagine life without them. They cross your mind throughout the day, you speak regularly and you enjoy each other’s company. Gradually either of you make an effort to keep in touch. It isn’t a case where you are too busy, something has changed and you can’t put your finger on it. You still care about them and you hope things will be back to normal. Before you know it, the regular contact turns into irregular contact and then it suddenly turns into no contact at all.

Someone from my past came to mind the other morning. It was a dream I had the previous night that triggered my thoughts. I had spent quite some time getting to know this person and we slowly grew apart. We would still talk occasionally, in attempt to hold onto what was already lost. Then reality kicked in after a while and I had to accept that things would never be the same.

"People will forget what you said, people will 
forget what you did, but people will never 
forget the way you made them feel!".

There is so much truth in this quote! Funnily enough I vaguely recall what exactly happened back then, but I can remember exactly how I felt!

How does someone you speak to almost everyday become a distant stranger?

Hunt For Happiness

We spend a lifetime looking for happiness. Happiness appears and it’s often taken away from us just like that-  back to square one!  Back to revisiting  the dark place you swore to never revisit.  Years, months, days, hours, minutes; anticipating and wishing for change and just like that it’s gone!   Tomorrow will be a better day you say..Well today is tomorrow and it feels like I’ve taken a step back.  How did I even end up here? Where do I go from here?

Imagine a time when you have wanted something for so long. Then when you least expect it, it comes your way. You’re immediately filled with happiness! You put your fears aside and feel as though you can conquer the world. You sit and think about all the great things to come and then everything suddenly changes..

I believe there is a reason behind everything that happens in my life. There is a reason I’m writing this blog post and probably a reason why you are reading it. I have so many unanswered questions that are constantly on my mind. You know when you genuinely want to know why something has happened in your life. You’re not at the stage where you can say ” I understand and I have learnt something from this”.

That’s me right now! I need answers!

juar

Too Comfortable In The Comfort Zone!

I’m too comfortable in the comfort zone! Is this even possible? Spontaneity unfortunately isn’t my middle name. I’m so used to my daily routine; I seek change without actually seeking it. Choosing the vegetarian option over the chicken option is not living on edge!

I have experienced a few spontaneous endeavors’, which are usually suggested by friends and I have thoroughly enjoyed myself! You know when you leave all your worries behind and embrace the moment! Waking up the next day, reminiscing about the day or night before and flicking through the few pictures you have stored on your phone. These are the days I need more of!

I need to break out of my routine, go with the flow and look forward to what everyday has to offer me. I am almost 1/2 way to 50 and there is so much I still want to do. I’ve had a few setbacks which I am overcoming, but I think it’s time to work a little harder on exiting the comfort zone! Don’t you? As comfortable as it is, I need to get out of my seat!

cz